Transformation Tuesday

This morning, I don’t know if it was the red shirt from the Mustache Dache, or my new leggings from Girlfriend Collective but my Trainer friend Valerie noticed I am losing weight!!!


So that made me feel good and start my day on a high note!

I made the most delicious breakfast


Had a grilled chicken salad for lunch!

Work was fine; my knee has been bugging me a lot though.

Tonight’s dinner was chicken sausage and peppers and onions and salad:)

Blessed and thankful.

You’re invited to…

A pity party. For me, Myself and I.

This morning I had a great workout but had to deal with a lot of phone calls and Adulting.  Good news from my husband’s doctor (his numbers are good!) so I refilled his RX.  I called my Ortho Doc for him to check my super swollen and tender knee(it’s been giving me trouble since June).  I called my car company to deal with the rock that dinged my windshield on the freeway yesterday.  I called and made a hair appointment.  I had a busy day at work.  I had an egg cup and chia pudding for breakfast.  For lunch I ate the leftover chicken and veg from our crockpot and some cabbage. We had a meeting and someone brought brownies (Dang it, didn’t even look at them!)! Confession: I had a weak moment and ate my coworker’s Skyflake:


Do you know how good these are?! They are the softest saltine and best cracker in a pinch! Like a pillow. Like a cloud:) Get it? Yes, I know it is processed Gluten, but man was it good.

Tonight I had leftover beanless chili:)! Walked Lefty and found shoes and earrings for this 1970s party we are going to on Friday:)

Just made the best nighttime tonic from Sara


I’m just feeling down. My cramps are raging, my knee is bugging me, feeling homesick because we won’t be able to go home for Christmas, and my mom is visiting my new baby niece!  It’s like, “ugh…” just wanna curl up in bed.

I’ll be alright. How do you stop thinking about something you’ve wanted all your life?  

Feeling old

I know I’m not old! I know I’m not fat! I know I’m beautiful! I know I’m a happy wife! I know I’m intelligent! I know I’m talented and strong!

Oh oops, hello there, you just got a glimpse of my mantras…! See, my knee has been giving me a lot of grief today.  I am grateful to be alive and healthy, but I just feel old.  I wish I was not only pregnant, I wish I had a kid already. I am going to be 35 next month, and it also marks my 9th year of freedom since my divorce, my 7 years working at the wonderful job that I love, and all the holiday parties are already starting!

So this morning I had grapefruit before my workout and then I made a good breakfast of eggs and a GF waffle with nut butter (I know, this is a cheat!). 

Lunch was the tuna cabbage slaw.

I love my snacks of apple, celery, cucumber and carrots!

Tonight was Girls night. Chili cookoff and Potluck. Oh man. I had beanless chili and veggies mostly, but I splurged on a GF cookie and even a couple GF crackers! So even when I cheat it’s within reason right?!

We had so much fun together. We shared what we are thankful for


Just iced and used my myofascial releazer but this time not only has it been swollen all day, it hurts. 

Thanks, dear readers, for letting me share my struggles and hopes today!

There is always time for rest…and YOGA!

DISCLAIMER: I received this DVD but no monetary compensation, mainly to test and review the product, and all opinions are my own. It is important to consult your personal physician before trying any exercise program.

From the cover:

Ashley Turner is one of the premiere yoga teachers in Los Angeles.

To my credit, I was walking in the dark, but I think because I was hurrying or carrying my stuff(always spilling coffee or dropping things;)) I didn’t see the uneven sidewalk and so, I tripped and fell Tuesday night, scraping my knee and twisting my ankle. Wednesday I couldn’t join my friends at November project and hobbled around at work icing the swollen, painful ankle, so I checked out this DVD. I was super frustrated thinking this injury would set me back, considering I’m trying to lose a couple lbs before next week, the end of my Diet Bet game. Today I only put in half a day at work because I have a cold. Ugh. I can’t swallow, so mainly liquids for me. Perfect chance for more yoga! Which also happens to be part of the katiekactive.com Instagram next milestone define brave challenge.

God slows me down- He wanted me to rest! My husband is back at work, which such a relief after a long struggle of him looking for work. Now I have canceled weekend plans so that I can rest up. I do feel swamped at my job, but I really need to rest.

So this DVD! Ashley has a calming voice and sounds very knowledgeable. She has been teaching for 10 years and has a masters in Psychology and has been named one of the “Who’s Who of power yoga” too. The DVD featured gorgeous calming scenery(of my pacific!) and a lovely, relaxed sense of being throughout.

Did I tell you about all the times people have assumed I’m pregnant? Could be a cultural thing, could be a gluten bloated belly, could be a newlywed thing (in the last three years), could be the shirt I was wearing…but I can’t stand it. I have always desired a flat belly(I don’t mind about the 6 pack I just want to lose this old tire), but there are days where I’m happy with myself and days where I hate it and days where I love starchy things and days where I want to burn all carbs! There was once a time when a lady came up to me (4mos after our wedding) and put her hand on my belly and said, “oh what’s this?! Oh, is it holiday bloating? I was gonna say that’s a little fast for you! Oh, I know we all need to do more yoga don’t we?” I was so stunned, not realizing she was joking, and I got over it, but from that point on I started working on my core!:) I didn’t think yoga could really help me lose weight.

Now this DVD comes along. I didn’t know what to think. But as you’re slowly stretching and breathing(nothing like a fast paced HIIT or a speed interval run!) you are listening to Ashley’s mental focus: it’s all about how you view your body, what your weight loss goals are, and how to listen to yourself and how to breathe and center yourself.

I have so enjoyed watching the new show “The Red Band Society” on Fox. I think it’s cute, funny, and heartwarming. There is a lovely girl that has an eating disorder. I don’t think she looks all that skinny but I am drawn to slender people. I always wanted to be thinner and leaner, toned and sculpted, but I felt like I was big bones and I knew I loved to eat so there was no danger in me becoming anorexic. But over eaters Anon? Yeah, afraid that’s me. Self mutliating? Depressive and anxious stress eating? Negative self talk? I know all about that.

So I need to uh, do this DVD every day until the positive self talk becomes a part of me. Until it drowns out the past voices of preggo talk and judgmental voices (of others or my own self).

Go check out this DVD from Anchorbay on amazon. It is worth it, fit buds!
Go stretch. Remember to breathe. Listen to the waves of mercy washing over you…

Stop. Rest. Meditate. Move to the rhythm of your breath!

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